i'm supposed to love you.

was that actually a real smile i saw you flashing?
it's hard to believe that something other than her can make you happy.
actually, more times than not, she's the cause of your misery
but that's your habit
and you haven't found a way to kick it.
i only understand this concept because that's the way i feel about you.
my sole purpose.
my reason for thriving.
my obsession.
"it's a strange way of saying that i know i'm supposed to love you"
i'm supposed to love you.
it's funny because i didn't look at it like that until this very moment.
i was meant to love you
it's the only explanation for the pain and happiness you're capable of bringing me.
i'm supposed to love you.
i'm supposed to love you.

.xOx.
xox?