i'm even productive in class... see.

same obsession. different day.

i can't quite put my finger on what it is about you that i can't get out of my head. i still haven't figured out if i want to get you out of my head, but i'd like to know why you were put there. i think it's the way you say my name. like there's something more to it. it's not just a name to you, or is it? i haven't figured you out yet, but i'm on my way. i think you see it too... we're already finished each other's sentences. maybe i'm just being silly. but then that would make you blind. i'll choose silly over blind any day because that way i know i'm not missing out. i hope this isn't just a phase, but you might be and i'm not sure how i feel about that. i'll ignore everything if you don't reciprocate the feelings, but don't think you have anything to lose... except it's completely against the rules. i know you're not one for breaking them ::sigh:: i know this will get easier eventually, but i won't give up without a fight. i wish there was a 12-step program to get you out of my system. i need a dose of detox. sometimes i wish i could just let it all go and walk out because i know there's no hope. maybe if i left, you could realize what it was about me that put that smile on your face. i know i do at least that much for you. i guess it's enough... knowing that i make you smile. that's more than i could ask for right now. but i wish you'd realize i could make&keep you happy.

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i just want to see you light up.